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June 20, 2012

happy birthday

Dear Mom,

Happy Birthday, Mom. Today you would've been 57. It's strange to me that it's been 17 years since you've been gone. That's over half my life now. Words could never express how much I miss you. There is never a day that goes by where I don't think about you, wondering if you know what's going on here, and if you're happy where you are.

I think about the milestones in my life you had to miss--graduating from high school, getting married, having kids, graduating from college. There's a lot more that you're going to miss, too, and that's where so much of my sadness and anger come from. I don't know why you were taken from us so early. I always knew you died too young, but now that I am approaching 40, I have a new understanding of just how young you were than I did at the age of 14.

I want you to know how much you are loved and missed, and how badly I ache for the times here that we won't have.

All my love,
Jenny

8 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss. :( I do have an award for you from over at my blog!

    http://www.lifeisgood-forever21.blogspot.com/2012/06/stylish-blogger-award.html

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    1. Thanks, and I'll check out the award. :)

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  2. What a moving letter. My mom lost her mother at a young age too...I can't imagine how hard that must be to deal with.

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    1. Thank you, that's a huge compliment to me, when I can write something that moves someone. It's been very hard. It's crazy because while I was only 14, my sister was only 9 (the same age as my daughter) when we lost our mom. It's hard for me to imagine how my mom must have felt, leaving girls behind so young, though it was completely against her choice.

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    2. Wow. That must have been hard for both you and your sister, as well as your mom.

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    3. It really was so difficult. I can't even put it into words.

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  3. Wow, what an amazing and moving letter. I am following you now. What a great blog!

    Christina @ Ensconced in YA

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    1. Thank you so much. That means a lot. :D

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